it's just a note...

Diary saya selama di Amerika:

O Lord.. what the heck I'm thinking about right now?
Questions were running trough my mind in these past few days.
I've been here about 7 months and it's just great, I love my American family and friends.
I fell in love with a Country named United states, but it hurts me a lot knowing that I'm going home soon. frankly, I'm not ready yet. I'm not ready facing the reality that I have to finish my senior year after I get back.

gez, I bet it gonna be hard. I realize not all people could be able to accept me as what I really am. I'm thinking about that over and over again. I asked to myself what would my life be if I'm not in this place at the moment. then I remember the reason that I was here was because I needed a change.
there was no point in feeling sorry for myself because this was my own decision. I decided to really take advantage of my new surroundings and try immerse myself in life here to learn as much as I could.

looking back on the past 7 months, I've learned so much that it's sometimes too hard to comprehend. after being accepted for studying abroad, I started to view my current life more critically.this entire semester of traveling and meeting new people has really given me a global perspective by exposing me to so many opinions. even though in the beginning it took awhile to feel comfortable, this year has offered me many brand new experiences. it was just the change that I was looking for. and seems like it gonna be vise versa when I get back.
I guess the place that I called school won't be the same anymore, but that's OK for me because I don't really care that much. I don't care with the class title or stuff like that, I don't care what people might think about me. I TRULY DON'T CARE.
I've learned a lot of valuable lessons in life and this year really helped me grow as an individual.
I went as a young, immature teenager, and hopefully I'll come home as a mature & wiser teenager.